So much to think about!

The past two days have Been hectic, fun, and full of good solid reasons for me to think a bit deeper about some things. Watch out, deep thinking from me could be dangerous. Last night we had dinner with Colleen and Bert, the couple that Cindy met on the EC on line support group that ended up living in Lebanon. We had a great time and I know for me it was really refreshing to talk to Burt and hear him comment on things that were the same for me. It just seemed to make it all a bit more bearable when hearing him talk about similar aches, pains or quirks. I know it's all about not feeling alone with this. In the beginning everyone does, and unless you open your eyes and give yourself the opportunities, you can easily miss the fact that you are not alone. One thing Bert insists on, which I too have encouraged those around me, is that as you walk down this path, you quickly see that there are so many others that have it much worse than us. Much worse in a sense that their cancer might be the same, and possible outcomes just as gloomy, but their support system just isn't there. We both agreed how lucky we are to have families, friends, and so many others looking after us.

Then this weekend, I also thought more about the single mom cancer patient that I met last week. I don't know much about her but I find myself so aware of how hard that must be to have two teenage daughters as a single parent and have to deal with cancer as well. I'm pulled to find out more about her so that if there is anything we can do for her I want to make sure we do. My freezer is filled with soup, maybe no one brings her any?

Then comes the issue of motivation. I have always been a person who got a lot done but never was quite sure of what my key motivation structure was. Cindy would like to think it was pressure. That I worked the best under deadlines and therefore kept myself on the edge all the time to keep my output at a peak level both in timeliness and quality. Well if she is right, then that is a pretty bad methodology for me now, and I really want to develop a new one. The only real deadline (sorry no pun intended) I now have is not one I should be using for motivational reasons or at least procrastinating to it. So I have been reading and pondering new ways to build that feeling of true motivation. Yes friends, this is a call for help, advice, tricks or whatever you want to call it. I'm definitely looking for a new motivational strategy and willing to reward anyone who gives me something I can grasp on to and use. I say that because I just found a $25.00 gift card to White Castles, so I am loaded right now. Let's see who I motivate with that!

The week has gone well. My last Chemo round is Monday and then a week off before the next round starts. Oh yes and the big news. I almost forgot. It seems my hair has stopped growing. So for those that were curious what I looked like bald and were a bit disappointed that it didn't happen, it looks like it still might. Maybe this is the beginning of the process and "Coujak" may still show up.

Have a wonderful week, thanks for all my cards, calls and visitors and may God bless you all.