A troubled day.

I would like to just forget about Wednesday, at least most of it. I have found that with such a huge support group and so many who check up on me, it was too easy to downplay the days or times I feel really bad. Now don't get me wrong, that is a good thing. It helps me to minimize the negative. But yesterday was just a bad day all around and no matter what happened all day, I just couldn't find much positive energy around me. Until I had a good cry and lots of medicine and a brisk walk outside with Cindy, I just couldn't get myself past all that was going on. Most of it was physical of course, yet mixed with the Chemo brain antics of my gremlins, it began to be a mental battle too. The end of the day was a real plus after the walk. Fortunately it was men's group night and this is the bunch that comes to my house, so as usual, my spirits were raised by loving hands and hearts and some darn good conversation and prayer too. Thank you gentlemen.

Now on to the good parts, tomorrow. While i was trying to sleep, Cindy's brother Tim came in for a few days and that will be an uplift. He can help me with a few small tasks around here. The kids will all show up on Friday r Saturday to "take" Uncle Tim at Skyline. A family tradition since he lives in Oregon and of course can't find anything like it there. So having family around will be a plus for sure coupled with subsiding effects of Monday's Chemo. And don't forget, I'm on a break for a week as well. this could be good. Also tomorrow is walking and lunch day with Jim, an activity that always lifts me up and hopefully helps keeps him up too. Sounds like a much better day for tomorrow, one that I look forward to. With the additional medicines today, i find myself wanting to cut this short and try sleeping again. So with that, I will remind you that you are all thought of and loved and may God bless you all.