Explaining the delay......

I won't hold back any punches. These last few weeks of the new Chemo has been more than I could handle, and seemed to get worse every day. Finally, this Monday, I went in for round three and the computer printout on my body numbers didn't make anyone smile at all I was dehydrated, deflated, nauseated to the extreme, oh heck, everything was to the extreme. So her first concern was getting fluids into me. Then she told me she was not giving me the Chemo that day. That fact didn't bother me since all of this misery had started since the new Chemo started two weeks prior. So after a few bags of medically enhanced Evian selling for $180.00 a bag, I went home to keep suffering.
It did however start to get better slowly but not fast enough for me to make my decision to go to NYC on Wednesday. For those that don't know, Wednesday was our departure date for my yearly NYC trip where I take the exchange students and adults and we have just a wonderful time! I waited until the very last day, hoping I could muster up the physical stamina to make it, but I knew deep down it was impossible. A few of the adults going on the trip had been along with me before, in fact more than once and we had talked earlier that they certainly could handle the trip without me. It was the hardest thing, for me to wave goodbye at 4:00 AM Wednesday as they left for the airport. But I do hear they are having a wonderful time and all is well. Maybe I'll be able to go next year, who knows.
I just want you all to know that I am bringing my computer upstairs to make it a bit easier to write these because they are so very important to me to write as well as any of you reading them. I too hate when there is a delay and I want to try to avoid it as much as possible. So much has happpened lately and in a positive way so I still enjoy sharing those moments... like that wonderful snow we had last Saturday and the effects of the changing weather on all our spring flower growth. I have some great pictures to show as well. So here is the deal, I am still okay, just wasn't doing very well and I do intend to stay more current on the blog entries.
I still think of you all often, squeeze my easter bunny from Keena every day, plan to catch up on my 145 emails very soon and every day I am aware of how lucky I am to have such a group of family, friends, and loved ones like all of you. God Bless you all! You are loved.